Day 171: Happy Birthday Asha!

Today was Asha's 6th birthday, and it was the happiest one ever. There were lots of sweets and balloons and gifts and surprises, but here was the BEST part of it all:

Ian's chimerism results are in: 100% donor!!! 

This is from the peripheral blood only, not the bone marrow. But it really feels like a miracle, coming on the eve of Asha's birthday especially. For months she has been praying he would be healed by her birthday, or on her birthday. Those were the two choices she offered, God could take his pick. I had been honestly dreading the test results and her birthday, knowing they were likely to overlap and fearing the worst. I guess that is why Jesus told us we need faith like a little child. 

It isn't proof that he is cured (it will take about 5 years being disease-free before the doctors consider him cured) and we still have a long road ahead, but this is definitely wonderful news. His liver function tests have improved significantly also, so we are coming out of the danger zone there as well. Whew!!! 

Ian's doctor is out of the country for a few weeks, but when he is back we will talk more about whether or not to do more chemo. His immunosuppressant was doubled when his liver tests were elevated, and we are not sure when the slow process of reducing them will resume. For now we are holding steady under quarantine and enjoying life together as a family. 

Ian has an appointment next Friday to have the central line taken out of his chest, and I am counting the days! I don't mind flushing each of the three lumens daily with saline and heparin, but the waves of infections and the whole business of a tube coming out of his chest has been really disturbing for me. So thankful to have this part of the journey come to an end soon.

Good news all around. 

So thankful. 

Thank you for your love and prayers! 

Day 164: The Latest

So here's the latest news:

• All of Ian's liver counts have gone up since last week. Not significantly, but we were hoping they would continue to go down instead of back up. Definitely no chemo this week. Even so, we are deeply grateful for those who quickly responded and volunteered to take Ian if we had needed it. Please pray for his liver to heal from whatever is causing these elevated LFT's.

• Ian now has what looks like an infection in his central line, so we spent the afternoon today sitting in the infusion room getting IV antibiotics instead of chemotherapy.  He began an extra two week round of oral antibiotics tonight as well. Hopefully we are catching it early. Seeing the tube coming out of his chest makes me quiver enough as it is, but the redness and oozing and high probability of infection really makes my skin crawl and heart ache.  They are considering taking the central line out of his chest completely this next week since he is no longer taking IV medications regularly. Please pray the infection clears up quickly and completely and does not spread any further.  

Thank you!

Day 161: Quick Update

Here is a super quick update:

•  Ian's liver test counts have come down a bit. His doctor is still unsure if the cause is GVHD or toxicity from the chemotherapy, since the timing of everything lines up perfectly for both. They have postponed his chemo treatment, just in case. If his liver function tests are back to normal or close to normal this Friday, then they will begin round two of chemo then.  
• They pulled blood for a new chimerism test last week, and we should have results by the end of the month.  These results show cancer markers for leukemia as well as the donor/host percentage in his blood.  It's always a little harrowing waiting for this kind of news, so I'm trying not to think about it. 
• They dropped the second clinic day so we are back to just Fridays!  Huge relief, especially since Asha has just started to get car sick on these longer drives. By the way, if any of you are available to drive Ian to the clinic in San Francisco for one of his chemotherapy appointments so I could stay home with the girls, this would be a huge blessing.  The chemo schedule is Friday - Tuesday, once a month, but actual appointment times vary. Next week (if they decide to do it) Monday is still open for healthy volunteers who haven't been knowingly exposed to anyone sick in the past two weeks.  Please contact us personally if you are interested in helping out in this way.

Thank you!

Day 150: Clinic Day Prayers

I feel pretty toasted after a very long clinic day, but I also know how valuable your prayers are so I wanted to post a quick update:

At the forefront of concern is news that Ian's liver function tests (LFT's) are elevated significantly. His doctor seems more concerned that it is GVHD than the SOS returning, so he doubled Ian's immunosuppressant to see if that helps. It's tricky to know the cause, since his chemo can also cause elevated LFT's. He is scheduled to begin the next round this coming Friday, but they may push it back if his levels are still elevated. 

Statistically, doing this chemo treatment gives a greater cure rate so it is pretty important. It may not be worth the risk of another liver failure, however.  If the issue is GVHD, it could possibly mean immunosuppressants the rest of his life. It could also lend a greater chance of cure, however. This is because as the graft is fighting his liver, it may also be fighting the leukemia as well. I feel dizzy following all the rabbit trails of possibilities, so I'll leave it at that. I just pray that by whatever means necessary the end result is that he is cured.

Another item for prayer is his lungs.  He has had a pretty bad cough for the past week and a half, and there was a lot of crackling when they listened to his lungs today. They did a chest X-ray and it came out clear, no pneumonia, so they just put him on antibiotics. Please pray his cough and lungs clear up quickly and completely.  

Thank you!

Day 148: Thankful

I am thankful for so many things today.

I'm thankful I haven't had a headache since I posted my last update. It feels truly miraculous...

 Thank you so much for your prayers!

I'm thankful to feel in love with my children again.  I think the daily, throbbing headaches were really getting to me. So thankful to feel like a mom again.

I'm thankful for free tickets to Roaring Camp Railroad given to us this past weekend! 

I'm thankful for a few hours of breaking quarantine to ride on a steam train through the redwoods and play in a little red barn and climb haystacks. 

I'm thankful for the girls getting fresh air and for their little hands digging in the forest floor, even if we did have to scrub ourselves down as soon as we got home before having any contact with Ian...

I'm thankful for their rosy cheeks in the sunshine and Asha's beautiful butterfly face painting:

I'm thankful for friends who joyfully took Asha into their home for a sleepover in the redwoods Monday night. She arrived there ready for more forest adventures with her backyard safari gear!

I'm thankful the cough Ian has had this past week (which keeps me up at night worrying about him) seems better instead of worse this morning.

I'm thankful that Ian is starting to push himself to follow a weekly exercise routine to slowly regain his strength. I love watching him and Asha do the 7-minute workout together!

I'm thankful for a daily practice Ian and I have been developing together, reading various books/blogs/devotionals during Fiona's nap time that are cultivating deeper spiritual conversations and soul connections. 

I'm thankful for a good cry last night. Every once in a while it's necessary to face the reality of what we are going through and expose all the hidden grief and fear and worry, feel the heaviness of it, and let the tears flow. There is an extra measure of grace, strength, and sweetness that seems to come in these moments of raw broken-heartedness. The Lord carries us when we are weakest, and it's a precious place to be in the arms of God.

I'm thankful Ian is still chugging along without complications. 

 We never know what the next day will bring, but I'm so thankful for these precious, ordinary days we are having all together.

And I'm so thankful for all of you - for your love and prayers and support.  We are always so encouraged to hear of friends old and new (and some who we have never met!) who are following our story and praying for us regularly. Amazing...

Thank You!!!