Update

I've really struggled with updating due to the heavy nature of Ian's current state, but I finally decided to lay it out on the table for continued prayer. The fungal infection is growing daily and literally covering Ian's skin with thousands of painful lesions, head to toe. Older ones from a week or so ago have darkened and are slowly decomposing into open wounds. He can hardly use his hands because they are covered with so many painful sores. He cannot survive much longer in this condition with no immune system, though his vitals are still stable. He is on continuous, increasingly heavy pain management. 

It sounds like a nightmare, and it truly is. But somehow, I've learned really well, when nightmares come to life there is so much more abounding grace to walk through them. I don't know how to explain it, but it's like a massive trampoline where you barely jump and are lifted higher in the air than you ever knew was possible. His love is so palpable, along with the pain. 

Please pray for extra comfort for our girls as their little hearts continue to process all this and I'm mostly with Ian these days. They visited yesterday and it was intensely painful for Fiona to leave. She wanted to stay the night with us at the hospital, but it's just too hard to juggle the girls and Ian here for very long while he's in such an intense stage of disease. Please pray wisdom for me as I seek the right balance here. 

We continue to pray and plead for Ian's life. If you have a gift of healing and feel called to pray, over the phone or in person, please contact us. As long as there's breath, there's hope. And we always have the deeper and unshakable hope of direct union and communion with our Creator, together forever in new and better bodies that won't ever decompose. If the Lord takes Ian, He's taking him straight into His arms of perfect love. So there's always hope, no matter what. 

Thank you for all your continued love and prayers ❤️