Scary News, Please Pray

Please surround us with prayer. The doctors are worried. They are concerned it may be leukemia presenting in the lymph node of his tonsil and are pursuing a fine needle biopsy of it if possible. They have found no trace of any virus in his system and the big gun antibiotics haven't helped, it is only getting worse and fevers continue. They think it may be the leukemia progressing. He is getting another bone marrow biopsy right now as I type this. They will assess where he is at and decide from there what to do. 

There are very few people with high risk AML who survive as long as Ian has. It is a sort of "uncharted waters" as far as the research goes, so they say we are relying on the experience and creativity of the doctors. Fortunately, his main doctor is one of the best. Unfortunately, he is on vacation for the next few weeks. Please, please pray for wisdom for the Nurse Practioner who knows his case best (besides his main doc who is gone) and the other doctors who are on his team. 

Ian is hanging in there. He has post nasal drip that combines with his massively swollen throat to create a lot of gagging, nausea and vomiting. He hasn't eaten or kept much food down. He still can shoot me a twinkly smile to melt my heart, though. 

Honestly, I am heartbroken and scared. I've cried and cried the past two days. I want to be strong for Ian and the girls but I feel like a sad mess. All my strength and hope feels far away. I need a bucket full of grace to pour down on me. We need your prayers more than ever right now...